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۱۳۹۰ فروردین ۳, چهارشنبه
Laying in my bed , I was thinking about making a confession to myself so it just got started and I asked myself : tell me what you want ? and I gave the answer : you know it was hard to bear it , so I decided to lower the pain and then I started killing some specific things inside of me , it was just to make myself chill out . I was saying things that I really did not want to happen deep inside , I gave you my words It was not really what I wanted to happen but maybe it was the only way to make myself feel better and then I asked myself : There was no other choices ? and I gave the answer : You know it was maybe 2 years ago I was kind of inexperienced I don’t know what could I do ? there was pain and all I could do was killing the sickness inside of me so I started fighting my Instincts I was jealous , I WAS , but I could not bear the pain so I killed it inside of myself you know I used to tell myself the worst things could ever happen and then I was telling myself : so what girl ? I don’t want to see you getting hurt , You understand ?
It was like you see your boy sleeping with another girl and then you are like : So what? and you laugh and you can even enjoy it ! I think I was killing my consciousness ,You understand ? and now I am thinking if it was true what I have done or not ?
And then I asked myself : What have you concluded from these things happening to you and then I gave the answer : I found there is something more important , these things could have happened and then they just got happened , I needed a good friend , That was all , I didn’t care about other things , There was an 8 old girl inside of me she needed a good friend she never had , she didn’t care about biggies business , You know she had kind of imaginary world and it was not really imaginary it was her life it was what she needed , yes she was looking for a good friend . have you ever been in a long trip a very disgusting and trashy trip then if you are going through this alone you will feel like it’s too long , years , thousands years but when you have someone for instance a good friend it’s not that long , it’s short and joyful , you never want it to finish , You got it ?
۱۳۹۰ فروردین ۲, سه‌شنبه
۱۳۸۹ اسفند ۲۸, شنبه
۱۳۸۹ اسفند ۲۶, پنجشنبه
۱۳۸۹ اسفند ۲۵, چهارشنبه
۱۳۸۹ اسفند ۲۳, دوشنبه
۱۳۸۹ اسفند ۱۹, پنجشنبه
میگه وقتی مخابراتی ها عدم قطعیت بین زمان و فرکانس رو دیدن برای این که بتونن فرکانس هایی رو که می خوان دقیقا به دست بیارن از فیلتر ها استفاده کردن ولی وقتی الکترونیکی ها عدم قطعیت بین مکان و اندازه حرکت الکترون رو دیدن یه سری فیزیک دان خودشون رو قاطی کردن (مثل هاوکینگ) چرت و پرت گفتن ، زدن جاده خاکی (فلسفه) اینه که هنوز راهش پیدا نشده . میگه برید کتاب آخریه هاوکینگ رو بخونید اعتقادتون به خدا چند برابر می شه بس که چرت گفته .
